Dear Lillian, Earth’s dark shadows flee…

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I dropped you off at school yesterday morning and hopped back in my car. The seasons are about to change, I could feel it in the air. It was slightly cooler for the first time in a long time. I rolled all of the windows down and watched as Masha lifted her chin to feel the breeze on her neck.

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The sun’s rays pierced my skin through the sunroof forming goosebumps on my forearms. It felt like I was a battery being recharged to 100% again. I had new energy that I couldn’t explain.

I took Masha to the dog park for an hour and then drove home. The fresh fall air greeted me as I walked through the door. I just felt different. “Peace,” I thought, “peace is what I’m feeling for the first time in a long time.”

I’ve been praying for peace, and with season change came peace.

This morning, I sat in the kitchen with the windows open and felt the cool autumn morning air as it lightly graced the curtains. The leaves danced slowly to the ground and I couldn’t help but feel a sense of peace again, as if a piece of me was shedding like the trees. I have been ready to leave behind these lies the enemy has been feeding me.

As each leaf fell, I thought of a negative thought that I wanted to shed from myself.

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Worthless…not good enough…
never will succeed…will never please anyone…
I have no value…failure…

Each word floated to the ground and crumbled away leaving me with a sense of overwhelming peace. For the first time, I saw my value. I saw my purpose and my future. I thought, “I. AM. GOOD. ENOUGH.”

I felt like I had my spark back – the drive to create something again, something for myself.

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I spent a good portion of the evening painting.

 

I played around with some paint and palette knives while attempting to create an abstract rendering of my grandfather’s barn. It felt so good to do and very therapeutic.

There will be times in your life that you doubt your ability. You will doubt God’s plan for your life and the enemy will feed you lies that you are not doing what you should be doing. But if you’re actively pursuing God, then you are exactly where you are supposed to be. He will give you peace and that’s the peace I got today.

This song has been running through my mind the past few days and I can’t help but sing out “earth’s dark shadow’s flee!” The dark shadows are blowing away and I see the brightness of my Father’s glory.

Ever lift thy face upon me
as I work and wait for thee
resting ‘neath thy smile Lord Jesus
Earth’s dark shadows flee.
Brightness of my Father’s glory
Sunshine of my Father’s face
Keep me ever trusting, resting
Fill me with thy grace.

There is no better feeling than feeling the Holy Spirit give you peace.

 

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